Long time no blog!!

Well i ll be back!!

If u were wondering!!

I think if all were wondering what happened to "Parivartanam" and if that died a natural death because I came down out of India. Now then the desire of doing it is flaming up. As I pass my day here and learn a few things here and compare, naturally our country looks out of sorts.
It does sound cliched', but just the thought of putting together ideas and instances from a foriegn country sums up my desire to achieve "Parivartanam".
So the motto of "Parivartanam" - Transformation, Patiently - looks more likely to go unchanged. I thought a lot about the motto and If there was a need to change that, but it just entailed that there was no reason why it should.

I think Patience is my key word in bringing about the idea into a likely path of success. I demand a lot of it from the people I would be involved with.

Come put in ur ideas on this and let me know positively, on how this chain can grow.

Team Parivartanam

Love's many ways.. An ode to my love

i wonder of love's many ways
i wonder of its beauty and its grace
this time i saw it in my eyes
it took me to extremes of truth and lies

i feel the daunting task of its realisation
as it comes with no given preparation
unsaid emotions and unsaid words
unsaid beauty of the meeting of two worlds

sometimes a storm, sometimes a lull
ranging as it moves us from brightness to dull
tasks of the achievements, tasks of its path
takes the road, sometimes of peace, sometimes of wrath

definitions of hope, definitions of ultimate
turns at times to despair, at times great
the depth of it is so unmeasureable
the rationale of it is so unreasonable

the shades of the relationships it takes
a mix of friendship and long life partnership it makes
the reckoning of the critics and the sharply divided
is that the feeling of it is completely blinded

at the end I realise its mirth
and i feel its need and its worth
for all its deeds, for all its expanse
i shall make an attempt at this very chance

i know this will be my best ever ride
and i shall speak of it with some pride
love's many ways are worth spending
love in each way is unending

When will we learn??

I was stunned into silence when I saw a little piece of article about a father(in some tribal village) selling his twins for a measly 100 Rs. He did this in order to feed his family of 5. As far as my logic goes he would have lost on both fronts, one having done the deal and being able to feed his family for 2 days and second having not sold them and making the entire lot suffer. The mother of these children died instantly after giving birth, miraculously surviving the last 3 births she had been through.
I pondered about this issue and in that it gave me shivers. I was trying the blame game as to having the father on one side and the rulers of the country on the other. Conclusions could not be gathered though.
To most of us who read it, our mind would be in a sort of disgust. I somehow concluded that we as responsible countrymen and the elected leaders have such apathy towards people of the countryside( refering to tribals, BPL)..
The media, the government and the people have been bombarded by the issue of reservations, tracking a spoilt brat and his drug addiction so on and so forth.. but the real issues have taken a back seat. We are least worried about what happens to our own people across the country in small villages.. the killings in the BIMARU states, the Suryanarayan issue, the issues above, female foetecide killings.. these are forgotten chapters..we wander in the dreams of our own..
This is why decades after decades we bear the brunt of divided governments, foolish politics and an inefficient system..

Are we not responsible to change a nation which we belong to?? When will the public outcry rise?? When will education become the most important cause effect leading to betterment??
In a pure sense, the incident above could have never happened for if the father was educated.. all of this happened for survival.. elsewhere.. in news we have tribals turning cannibals..
On all of this above comments.. I dont wish to be an idealist.. but be a reminder for all of us.. that if we do not stand up today.. things would never change for good.. I dont believe we have yet achieved until all blots are eliminated..

Long live the nation!!!

Genesis of "Parivartanam"

'Parivartanam’ is a Sanskrit word meaning transformation; a change.

What is the need for a change and what does it lead to. These are two basic questions that emerge from everyone’s mind. Well, it’s our responsibly to ensure each and every one of you to understand the motto of the ‘Parivartanam Movement’.

Firstly, let us put some questions for ourselves. How many people in our country live a better and have a quality life, a life without poverty, good health, without corruption, a good and friendly environment, and free from illiteracy.
Secondly, are we going to handover this nation to the future generation with the same sort of life? Is it not our responsibility to give ourselves and them a quality life? If not this, are we doing enough for this nation, where we have resided for years exploring and exploiting the maximum natural resources?

‘Parivartanam’ is at the preliminary stage of progress with few members at this point in time. We are here to focus on certain changes at the current level and a complete need of ‘Transformation’ for our future generation. The Movement will categorically focus on development of individual life at the Panchayat, Society, and State and at the National level.

‘Parivartanam’ is a people driven organization involved at enlightening facts and a helping hand at duties of a common society. We shall fight for the common rights of an individual and also ensure to make the individual address his fundamental duties towards the nation. We understand that it’s easier said than done, but patience bears its own fruits. Our people will have a common motto of “Transformation, Patiently”.

Putting it more concretely and simplistically, we can make it possible, when more people join us as a part of this movement.

We don’t see any importance of celebrating our independence day unless we see the improvement in the quality of life in each individual among all class of people.

‘Parivartanam’ very soon will make its presence all over the nation to achieve its ‘Mission’ with help of all your support.

DEMOCRACY MUST MEAN CHANGE!!!

It is said by Lincoln that democracy is the Govt of the people, by the people and for the people.. But increasingly my faith on these words are diminishing.. It could be said that democracy must be restated in our country..

Just a few days earlier we all remember having lost Mr.Mahajan in an eerie incident.. With due respects to the young politician I have a small rebuke against the party and the state Govt which did all it could to save the young man..

Its in the right of every individual to get the best of facilities when faced with near death experiences.. But its not right, if the differences exist in rules for a well known politician and a common man..

I have this friend of mine who has been trying to get her kidney's transplanted for well over two years now.. Its been under the jurisdiction of the Maharashtra Govt. that a transplant needs a state level grant and permission.. This individual has applied for the same over the last 2 years.. but in mere vain.. responses have been slow and too procedural..

This is where the difference is.. If it is a well known face.. and money is laundered.. rules dont apply.. but if its a common person like us.. we chew sour grapes..

I simply fail to understand the simple fact.. and that is.. why should there be so many rules when it comes to saving an individuals life at a big institution?? Why are we so obssessed by a system that has so many flaws??

She has now applied for the same at another state where she faces a nexus of sorts.. people right from Govt officials, hospital authorities to the auto driver being involved.. Its a nexus in terms of the fees and staying expenses.. I confronted this house broker near the hospital who was charging a whopping 17000 bucks per month for a 3 room house in chennai..and moreover another house he showed us was at 25000..If thats not all.. there are separate charges for gas.. for utensils.. for etc etc.. Indeed I am happy that I was present to get my friend from being exploited.. this is happening to individuals everywhere and from places like Srilanka and Pakistan..This is a classic example of system failure in our country..

I think we are in a world which lives to accept fate as it is..I woke up a long time back.. I am vying for a change.. A change where we do not get controlled by such inhumane individuals.. a change where laws need to be reframed..

Its our time and I am on a path towards better life.. Soon we will have my organisation.. and its named PARIVARTANAM.. We have registered it for a website.. Please feel free to join US..

TEAM PARIVARTANAM

Volunteering at Greenpeace

After my stint at litter damage control (Throwing waste in the bins)..this step was a natural extension to the former.. So like Gau has a long time ago, I too decided on joining the Greenpeace organization to make a contribution towards a better nation and a better world at a higher cause..
I guess the reason would be to see that this organization makes vociferous engagements against the destruction on nature and its beauty.
These are still baby steps towards a better living.
Visit them at www.greenpeace.org

Calling it Quits!!!

Imagine this..

I am announcing my decision to QUIT SMOKING -~..

Well I know some feathers will flutter on dat decision..

But I have done a SWOT analysis reasons why I should and Why I shouldnt do it..

Lemme begin with the reasons for the Strengths..

1. It gives me a good old kick..
2. Its my partner in times of boring office and other hours..its engaging I mean..
3. Its a style statement..
4. My brand dosent stink like the others do..

Weaknesses..

1. It creates a hole in my pocket.. Calculations show me that.. 850 bucks(5 sutta's X 5 bucks X 30 days + error).. per month..probably will take care of my auto expenses in a little way..
2. I know I am in deep shit with money management.. this is some strategy to better that..
3. I know most of my people, frenz aint like me doing it..
4. I smoke the brand most people love to hate..my GG..

Opportunities..

1. My fren got me a zippo..Its on the lines for me to continue..style statement I said..
2. Well wat am I gonna find to drain me instead of my dear ciggy..I am researching that..
3. I know of people who might persuade me to start again.. but..I am sorry folks..

Weaknesses..

1. I cant smoke other brands.. probably started with the wrong one..
2. Even the calculations on other brands dont work positively..
3. It Kills.. I know thats cliche'..but it remains as a major factor..
4. It Kills people around..Pollution.. Passive smokers..I guess thats a neat beginning to think for other ppl's life..
5. Now if I hear these words.. ITS UR LIFE.. I have a statement against that one .. ITS URS TOO.. See above..I know this dost of mine will still cease to kill me after reading this..but at the end of the day will smile in the heart..

Anyways.. thanx to Mr.Porter..for SWOT analysis..I guess I got the rite Management guru on that strategy..u all know.. I hate strategies and books on them..

Thanx to my most beloved friends who showed me the path to take up smoking..and to those who persuaded me to Quit..
The latter ones win..

Happy Non Smoking.. -~

Look wat ppl with creativity can do!!

Look at this website..Dunno who has such a creative bend..

http://i.keke.ru/data/2005/9/18/hrewfwfwfw-1127045564-5763.swf

Sahi hai yaar!! Enjoy!!

Workplace Antics!!

To decide if my present workplace is worthwhile or opposite is a tough one to make.. Lemme talk abt the routine that we have here..
While most offices are laden with people arriving on time, my workplace dosent bother me much on that factor..I wud say its rather unfair of me to go to office as late as I do..On projects we carry out the mundane task of working around with unusual timings..but wen u arent on one..as i am..then the former action springs in the routine..All is then left to do is carry the task of checking up mails..cribbing why I have to come to office in the first place?? It pushes me into my ever undying habit of a smoke..a lot of gossip on my worth in the organization.. my next increment..my this.. my that..blah blah..
To take a look around is a sad tale to the eyes..ppl are exactly doing the same wat I do..We try looking busy..they ignore your moderate presence..but then I cant term them as insensitive..coz I am one of them..exactly trying imitate the others..kya karen boss ko dikhana padta hai apunkaa worth..
Time flies here..soon u see empty spaces.. its lunch time..love it or hate it..everyone is starving..and then comes another round of smoke and same old discussions..we are getting this work.. we are getting that..unfortunately u only get to listen to these eavesdroppings from your seniors..then u settle to rub noses, yawn.. all a sign of zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..
An early evening of snacks and chai plus ofcourse smoke adorns the outside space.. we discuss how much we did not work today.. why pay these amounts of salary to do this..We question tht everyday..
And sharp at 6.00 pm its bid adieu..

By now u must be thinking why we work here??

Well I have these answers,
.. where on earth do u get mongers who persistently prove that they are unworthy of getting salaries here, but always talk about their next hikes?
.. where would you find an office full of bosses waiting for their juniors to have a ciggy, while always claiming that more work needs to be done?
.. where would you find a workplace where your CEO takes you on a drinking party in his Tata Safari in the dead of the night, u see people wait for this kind of times in office when mostly 6.00 pm office looks like a haunted mansion.

I would put this workplace in a zone of its own.. it rocks for people empathy,dirty speaking, timings, the CEO- would have him call as a Chief Entertainment Officer..
It sucks coz of no work, nose digging, space for walk, forget not the lack of good babes..
while U decide for urselves..for me this office is life..its pays enough to sustain.. and encourages to stay put without work..
Signing off zzzzzzzzzzzzz...
ZZZZZailu...

My view on Crash and Memoirs of a Geisha

Saw two movies this weekend..Its become like a weekend habit for me..Its worth waiting and paying out of ur pockets for some of these cinematic beauties, as i witnessed them in Crash and Memoirs of a Geisha..
Lemme begin with Crash..Firstly the number of stories interspersed in that was fascinating..Woven into such a connection, its not hard to imagine why this movie won the Best picture award at the Oscars. Simple everyday notations of people's lives, but with a lot of meaning and a lot of indecisions..How for us life moves and affects others is what Crash is all about..Its simple as its title calls it.. We crash into each other every moment, everyday..but how we choose to ignore, pretend and defend the nuances attached to them brings to our hindsight the result of the above actions..
I think in terms of having connected the stories, this one was the best ever I witnessed. The last time some movie came close to this was The 3 Walls(Teen Deewarien, Nagesh Kukunoor)..Racialism, forgetfullness, unminding and busy as ppl are, comes across the societies that we reside in.. Though racialism dosent necessarily prevail in a country as ours..somethin called class of ppl does get imitated..Many ppl come to think of the movie as an event of ppl's behavior in Los Angeles, but I come to see it as introspection within our own little world..Passing judgements on right and wrong in terms of people and things comes very easy to most of us..But this movie shunned all that belief I have always carried along my way of life.. I think its just not enough to LIVE and LET LIVE..There's something more to it I do not have answers to that..But, I it believe it must be an integral decision each one must make.
Coming to Memoirs of the Geisha..Firstly for newbies..it means Glorified prostitute in Japan.. or should I call it that..I came to see it as more than that.. I would term them as ppl without choice..Sold to women brokers at ages of 9 for keeping one's family alive..it is one of the most glorified market for rich class mongers, hungry for artistic and pleasure making material..U will instantly feel emotional about the way this market flourishes..
But for the movie..a first rate star cast of Japanese actors, breathtaking cinematography, lavish production sets, magnificently designed clothes, hauntingly beautiful background score and a beautifully woven story of a Geisha who falls in love at the age when most of us are learning the very walks of childhood..I rate this movie as one of the most beautiful expression of love that was told..its heartwarming wants,desires and in the end the achievement of it brought across the belief I have in that word..
Told thru the voice of the Geisha the movie takes u thru the story of the girl who is a Geisha in the making, the hardships, celebration of being that character and keeping the secret of the love that she has in that entirety..While recursively comparing it to the likes of Bollywood romances and hard fought love stories that we create, I couldnt come across any single movie that lent a meaning of what love means to a person.. for all I know we make only potboilers with mixed themes and same old formulaes..
In a nutshell, this movie will bring about that fresh change of air from the very old set of movies we keep watching from our kitty back here..or even some hollywood romances..I think this will give me happy memoirs to have watched it..
Sailu..

The Kannur Trip

Hi all,

Well I know u wud be waitin for my comments on that one. Each time I go for a trip, I always exclaim that this one was the best I ve had!! Well I simply cant decide on that statement. All my previous trips had an element of some vigorous events, this one had a plenty.
To start of with, I can only visualize green components with everything. Green desk, green laptop, green office, green colleagues, greenly envying frenz and greenly greenly watchin Nimish(now u know why I am saying that!!, contact sailu for non trip members!!!). I think I am gettin too Greenish here.. Err Well Kerala is green, my life is green(found 2 good green frenz). Can i ask for more???
I guess to say it first, I was not myself I mean the Sailu my ppl know wen in office..so I was myself. The ever fickle, finicky mooded guy. For once crackin rubbish statements, singing loudly, laughing away into glory and on the other lonesome in the jungle, soul searchin!!!!.
For my oldie mates..gox..welcome to the gang man!!! U did it!!join the bandwagon..Nimish, will u ever ever ever..infinitely ever change??? For once again I succeeded in gettin u pissed off at the end of the trip!!, u sang once again uffff, and ur stint with gals, can they ever change?? Well I am not writin this for askin u to change, I am just stating that plz be like this ur entire life man!!!
For the newbies..Sushama.. wot do i say?? Cute, Charming, Beautiful( Sleeping Beauty), Extroooooooverteous, coooooooooooool...that list has to go on...Ask me why, again for the non trip members!!!.. wen are we makin the next trip gals????????????
The fort,the jungle, the resort,the daaru at the sea,the cannon balls(sush u note that), the beach ( beyatch---> I know u will call me askin wats tat term),the willy's jeep, the bonfire was all a joy to have and watch.. see the pics for more!!!
I guess me and sush still went to office, nimish's citi branch..We had no luck gettin loans..but but.. we managed to know tat nimish is one hard man at office.. GOD help him if he was my boss!!!
Well at the jungle I guess we had no luck with animals.. think, they knew before hand we were coming..tigers ran away.. wot to do?? well I had one cute dog which scared me..
And for the end of the trip..one fall did it all..those legs must be hurtin still Sush..Hopefully our experiments with the cure worked!! And 2 elongated days stay at Kannur, I know the place didnt want us to leave..Office was calling!!
And I know for all that Sush wud never mind drinkin some water!!

Wake up!! We are back to work!! I want to do this all over!! HOPE never DIES they say!!!

Sailu..

THE BEST PIC!!

  

Weekend at Chennai

Well we started off with a grandeur lunch at an IT park..and away into Mocha's in the evening.. Hukka n Choc Avalanche greeted us.. We then zoomed off to Food Village.. and it was time for beer and lotsa good veggie food..

It was one fun evening.. Sudeep, Gox and Sushma(thts one new person, add her to my list of frenz).. Cheers!!!!


 

My baby step towards a better India

Well u can call it coincidence or a sheer sense of getting awed by RDB!! Watever it may be!! I am not gonna go ga ga over the movie. Infact I am at short of words to describe what I felt after watching the movie.
On the close heels after watching the movie I happened to take the bus enroute to Chennai from Bangalore. As routinely as buses ply this one was delayed by half an hour. Typically I got a firangi as my co-passenger. Soon he learnt that he was gonna be seated on a pushback chair while having paid for a sleeper. He got into a tussle with the bus authority and as cliche as ever he got no response from that guy. This went on for some time and the guy got restless. He informed me of the same and said " All Indians are like this". Those words I guess hurt me and in a typical fashion I reacted comforting him on how I cud help him. I told him soon u will deem to take back ur words.
The very moment I got up from my seat and landed a blow of words to the authorities. I told them about their mistake, when I too recieved a response like "How does it concern u??" I barraged into an argument. I almost got into physical until some of my co passengers roughed up the authorities. I let them know of the situation and we got them to arrange convenience for the firangi. He thanked me and went on a slumber.
Not a second more than this got over three other people got on who had paid a sum and were assured a pushback. The authority showed them the seat next to the driver and they were dumbstruck. Another heated argument and this time they were excusing themselves of not paying back the money while the three of them decided to disengage. I got back into action with my set of people and protested against this nonsense. We yet again gagged them up and had them refund the monies. We hit the road an hour and half late than planned.
As I got back to my seat I sighed a sense of relief and responsibility. In India people need to learn to be intolerant against such gimmicks. We need to build a better life for people around us and ourselves. I think I have taken the first baby step towards a better India.
RDB

INDIVIDUALITY-deserves the highest place

I heard it from close frenz and families that we love our fellow people. Sounds nice and warming. Most of the times families tend to act as a source of support and close ties. I havent had the slightest idea why at times they tend to get over protective and reason theories that has no logic. Individuality is the key word that loses the very essence when decisions of life come across. Pressures and redundant motives tend to make it directionless and most times the cause of anxiety. Face it with career choices, marriages, decisions on kids and so and so forth. Particularly prehistoric thinking and superstitions make them blindfolded. Hardly do they realise that such is the pressure on the individual that for him/her to take decisions where choices are hardly a few that between respect for their views and place for their ambitions take a toll.
In all true respect the cliche dilemma and slogan is WE CARE and we know whats good for u. It makes my head a little dizzy and painful.
Hardly does one realise that true care and understanding comes with the sense of support of individuality and its choices. Many tend to forget that respect never comes by force but in all sense comes with guidance and support to let the individual make a choice. The choice to choose a career, a partner and overall the way he/she dreams about life.
So before you say U CARE and U know EVERYTHING remember that INDIVIDUALITY deserves more priority than a what viewpoint you have.

I wish I had answers
To the thoughts that my prevailed my mind

I asked myself a simple question
Why was I surrounded by
So much kindness
So much love
So much care

So many people
So many friends
So many memories

For my answers
I gazed outside my window
and watched the surroundings

I watched many people
As they walked across my sight
I wondered at each of them
How many were like me

Were their lives similar
To what I have
To what I own
To what I cherish

Life was moving
They were at work

Watchful were ...
Their words
Their actions
Their demands

How many of them had someone
or something to care about

I wondered if they were searching for something
Something that bereaved them

I crystal gazed at my future
Flooded were my thoughts
Would I turn the same?
Would life be this way?

I groped into darkness

Thats when amongst the dark
I found a shining gem
I moved towards it
I treaded uncaring

Answers came
That this is what i found..

I embraced this gem
I closed my hands
And held it tight under my fists

I would never let it go
Never let it fall
Never lose it

My gem signified
My people
My friends
My memories..